Year: 2015

F Comparison

  When you go back to school on your own dime and have to [actually] make time to keep on track, YOU’RE NOT PLAYIN’! It’s a sentiment that I’ve expressed more times than I can remember. I don’t know what I was thinking when I decided to go back to school, but I must’ve overlooked the whole “time” thing — how much I won’t have any of it. It’s a sacrifice that I’m willing to make, though, and I’m actually pretty proud of myself for keeping it up and sticking with it. God, I could have dropped out. I really could have, but I can’t do that to myself again. I’ve learned that even though, in the real world, it might be more about who you know than what you know, what you know can still save you. I try to alleviate all the stress with keeping in mind that it’ll all be over soon. On top of that, imagining what I can do afterwards, and with that say that I did this for myself by myself, lets …

On Time

I talk about time a lot. I think about it a lot. How much of it has gone, how much of it is left, how much I know nothing about what to do with, how much I don’t have of it, how much I have to make of it, how much I haven’t done with it. I think, after everything, I try to make the most of whatever opportunity pops up, regardless of how impractical or how many people might be against my decision. I’ve never really had an opportunity to figure out who I am, without any association to any other circumstance. I don’t know myself as well as I should, and that’s okay because we’re all constantly evolving anyway. But, I’d like to know about how I feel about other places, situations, realities than where I’m at. I always thought I’d do that, but I couldn’t, and now that I’ve had a taste of it, it’s all I want to do. And, I want to bring everyone I love along with me, but that …

Boxes

We’re finally packing! I mean, it’s only 3 days out until we’ve got to officially move to our new place. Please don’t judge us, we’re busy people! Ha! I’m pretty proud of myself for getting rid of even more clothes. Although, I’m also pretty disappointed in myself for having spent money on said clothes that were hardly worn. Earlier this year, I had cleared out a load out of my closet but held on to some that held sentimental value because I’m sort of in denial that I’m a hoarder. We started on a wish list for the new place. Since this place that we’re at now actually came fully furnished (except for beds), we’ve got to buy new furniture which makes the control freak inside of me SUPER EXCITED because I can get whatever I want! I am also finally aiming to actually make our new place look nice and decorate it to make it more of a home instead of a place we all crash at night. I am stuh-oked. Side note: Grammarly …

Changes

There are tons of things happening right now! I am too busy for my own good, but hey! What else is new? But I am human and I honestly can’t always keep track. Recently, I’ve started to feel the stress. I try not to let it get to me, but my gosh there’s way too much going on! Moving So I’m doing more moving, but instead of hosts, I’m moving IRL. Lol. It all came like a mad dash, really. Last week Shawn, Kaien and I went to go see a new place. It’s a lot bigger than where we are now. It’s a duplex, so it’s a step up from a condominium/apartment I guess. But before I could take in how amazing the new place is, we were approved; put down a security deposit; and we’re moving in next week. Talk about fast times. It’ll be a good move: closer to my parents, closer to work, closer to Kaien’s school. He’ll be much less tired in the mornings. Instead of a long drive to school, all …

Cold

Everyone in the office is so sick right now. I feel like Alaska, at least Anchorage, has bouts of cold and flu season every time the seasons change. I don’t know what it is exactly that’s going around but I don’t want any of it! It’s sort of ironic that I work somewhere that promotes health and wellness, and here we are all trying to get rid of some virus that’s attacking everyone. I don’t really like taking medicine for these things. I stick with methods that my mom used on us as kids. She mostly had us drink a lot of tea and eat a lot of porridge. She also made me drink this ginger root thing that wasn’t very fun but her side of the family swears by it for everything — weight loss, energy, hunger, evil spirits (lol I’m joking). I absolutely hated it but it worked well! These days I settle for Yogi teabags from the grocery store. My mom, to this day, will use actual tea leaves to make her tea …