Year: 2015

On 2015

If you’ve followed me long enough for the short lifespan of this blog, you know that I often recollect the past. It keeps me grounded, in a sense, and it helps me measure how far certain aspects of my life have come. I don’t tend to use all my reflections as a way to see how much I’ve grown, but naturally it becomes that way in some instances. I guess it’s an annual ritual that’s important for me — to look back before I move forward.

What is this even for?

I hate boxes, the figurative ones. The ones we put ourselves in even when we want to be or know that we are free-spirits. The stupid boxes suck. They suck the life out of all of us and make everything monotonous. I hate papers. I hate pushing papers. I hate paper-cuts. I hate recycling paper (even though we should all be recycling, but stay with me.) I wasn’t put into this world, with this mind full of unrealistic [but possible] goals for this. I’m impractical, and impractical people can’t be ordinary. Today is one of those days, where I repeat in my head over and over again “Is this really it?” The answer every single time is, “Hell no!” I think I reached today’s breaking point when I was told (mind the wording, not even asked) to plan the Christmas party. I’m all about Christmas, but what the hell? Is this all I’m worth, the event planner for a stupid Christmas party. I’ve got responsibilities, too. Why prioritize a Christmas party? Are you joking? You must be …

Winter

There’s one thing I’m quite certain that I’m not very good at — blogging. Or, at least ‘blogging’ in terms of what that word itself has become, what it means to be a ‘blogger’. I think this is a theme that I often revisit, mainly because I think personal blogging is dying. At any rate, all of my posts are turning into ‘life-lately-esque’ writing and I’m fine with that. I’d rather not be drowning you in other content that you can find anywhere else. Sure, I’ll probably get sucked in and join one of these bandwagons every now and then, but I just don’t have the energy to invest into all of that right now. So for now, you’re stuck with me recounting my life as it is in this moment.

Where I’ve Been

I’m alive, guys! I haven’t been doing much blogging lately because I’ve been focusing on school and work. I’ve also become a little bit more active in the language learning community, so most of my time has been filled up with homework, work, and Chinese! It’s been a really hectic time for me, and in the midst of all of this I’m planning a vacation with my mother. Emphasis on mother. Anyways, I’m taking a breather just to figure out where I’m at with everything. It’s good to break things down every now and then, right? My family is going to the Philippines in December. I haven’t been back since 2011, and a lot of ish goes down in 4 years. We’re going back for a wedding! This is a photo from a resort in Bauang, La Union. If you didn’t know, I was born and partly raised in the City of San Fernando, La Union. Which makes me Ilocano (Yeee! Pinakbet!). I’m excited to go back with most of my family, and I’m really looking …

Cussing and Other Things I Should Stop Doing

I don’t understand how people can be eloquent 24/7. I mean, unless I’m part of the British Royal Family (Whattup, tho, Kate?), no one should expect that from me. Being prim and proper is seriously not my forte, because I’m a real freaking person. I’ve acquired a vocabulary fit for a sailor, if you know what I mean. I might have been immersed in books and the language arts all of my life, but that doesn’t mean I speak in code and philosophies all the time. Contrary to it, I’m kind of a nut. Cussing though, all of the four-letter-words I opt to use, really needs to end. I don’t notice when I’m doing it and that’s a real problem. 1) I’m kind of in charge of a five-year-old, 2) I’m around other five-year-olds, 3) Everyone thinks I’m a nut (Well, I already told you I am.). While I could care less about what people think of me, I don’t want the way I speak to be a reflection of who I am except if …